Blueprints

I’m learning more and more that it is ok to just be me. Whether that looks like me who is bubbling over with passion, or the chilled out, content me that doesn’t feel the need to add anything to the group conversation.

Comparison is a form of manipulation of the soul. This form of self-sabotage is often used to feel in control of assessing our worth. Whether the fruit of that is feeling great about ourself, or feeling like a "total looser", we are manipulating information in order to create some kind of a framework to work with in the great architectural design of what we seem to believe is “self improvement”.

But how can you construct a building if the blueprints have been re-written through the objective perspectives of other buildings?

Example, if I were a building being put up, and my blueprint information was “tall but not as tall as the Eiffel tower, lest I’m seen as attention seeking” or, “wider than the tower of Pisa - I will not be compared to something that can’t even stand up straight!”

“You know, If I could have the same charm as the Colosseum in Rome, I would love that. I want to be respected like that. Except make me a little more robust than that, I don’t want to crumble away to historic memory… I want to be remembered… oh but not too robust, lest I don’t look feminine and perhaps loose my chances of being admired by artists around the world…”

The crazy thing is that we actually think like that! A blueprint like that is confused, has no idea of it’s own purpose, lacks a sense of belonging (because it doesn’t trust the builder), and forever feels like a fake - not an original - a clone.

This is where we are missing the mark, friends! Like I mentioned in my post, Stripped, I was pretty good at creating a great exterior, but was getting further and further away from the true foundation available to me laid out by Jesus Himself. The creator created me. He knows the best version of me that I could ever become. He holds the blueprints. His vision and his dreams for my life far excel my own capacity to imagine up myself!

One of my favourite bible verses these days is “He will achieve infinitely more than your greatest request, your most unbelievable dream, and exceed your wildest imagination! He will outdo them all, for his miraculous power constantly energies you!”

We simply need to trust Him, get to know Him. Remember His faithfulness. And when we said “yes” to Jesus, we gave Him our lives anyway. Jesus promised us that by trying to keep our lives, we would loose them, but if we gave our lives for Him, we would truly live.

Now, if God calls me beautiful, then comparison has lost it’s key to my heart. I don’t need her manipulative ways to make me feel secure or in control of assessing my worth.